Another Language

I run

My hands across myself

Can you see the x?

I reach out, for what isn't there

Mark me.

A straight line is easy to draw

In my head.

One hundred million miles of karma.

My road to you.

Let me outside into the war

Let me win

Let me try

I could, you know

But you missed it out.

Two straight lines,

Mean so much.

To someone who's obsessed with you.

A Little Bit

I am falling alongside

The grey rainbows

The gold is air

I cannot sing

The beautiful stare

Nature's sting

My eyes tear

Themselves crumbling

I cannot care

Life is anything

Hope is following

Stalking the blood

It's in my face

I cannot see

I am disgrace

You are not me

I cannot face

The honesty

Run Run Run

Away from me

This is the storm

Of sunshine

I am the end

Of sublime

You have reached the rope

Climb the thorns

Ignore the cuts

Deeper

Deeper

I reach your heart

Empty

Empty

I fall

Into nothing and everything

Which is what you are

I am falling alongside

The grey rainbows

You are so colourful

Inside

The Inbetweeners

I'm not going to lie.

I miss you.

I wan't someone/you?

Help me out of my heart's cage.

I want to fly free

Like you.

But with you.

I can't do both, can I?

Be close to me so I can push you away

Just turn up, I don't mind

It won't make a difference once

The rain stops and the sun comes out

The chance of a rainbow is so small

Places to go

Things to do

People to do

Thrown aside like

A letter of acceptance after you attend

The place which stole you away from me

I changed the door handles

A cheap way of making the doors seem new.

Never will they open again.

Not to you.

Not to anyone.

Unfinished Diary Entry - 8

Can't it just be easy for once

I've waited so long, and now this

In between a rock and an ocean

Of icy lies

Do I believe the vicar, or the murderer?

Up to me I suppose.

But what about my heart?

Silence you!!

Rainy days are ahead.

I've lost my umbrella.

I can't "shine" with you.

Even I could sing better than her.

If you would only give me a chance.

Unfinished Diary Entry - 7

Couldn't my heart fly away

Being away could heal me

My soul is without it's fitting

And my mind wanders/wonders

Around and around

In one large circle

Around you

And as you descend into my memories

I can tell you are still higher

Than I will ever be

Underground stuff

It's not allowed otherwise

My little piece of rebellion

Inside a shoebox

Underneath the holy books

Unfinished Diary Entry - 6

A scalpel would cut it all away

No more pain, just irony.

All this time, or maybe not, maybe not anymore

I've had enough

Of all the maybes

And the times

I don't know what's for

Real?

The wireless goes off

Too late

Too late

I had all that time

But no watch

Slipping away under my fingers

I end up clutching at myself

Nothing could ever be like that night

But only ever in my mind

Cowardice?

Or caution?

You decide.

Unfinished Diary Entry - 5

I would walk across the bridge

But can it support two?

Unfinished.

Questions, and I only get answers

Help me, please.

I've run out of it all

Never again.

I promised myself.

Only to realise I couldn't

How many times must the church bell ring

Until I realise that the white wedding dress is a lie?

Hand me your hair straighteners

And burn it all away

My darling,

The boomerang that never came back.

Unfinished Diary Entry - 4

I will always not love you.

We have a problem.

The weed and the speed

Makes you fly so high

Don't 9/11

Leave me alone for god's sake.

Like that exists.

Like a butterfly,

Pretty and weak.

Sit on a branch,

But fly away before I get close.

Too scared to hold you

Lest I hurt you

Come back to me child of wind

Unfinished Diary Entry - 3

I followed the yellow brick road.

I lost my heart, my mind, and my courage

Along the way.

I also lost you.

The wizard waved his magic wand.

And it all dissapeared.

The wicked bitch must've told her.

I must give her kudos though.

She's done well, seeing as

My red shoes ruined her

I walk back the yellow brick road.

Blood stained.

Something will die tonight.

Unfinished Diary Entry - 2

I run

through the thorns

The roses scream

Things too stupid to speak

I whisper abracadabra

And the petals close

All is gone in a second

The plague of cusses takes over your mouth

And the leaves become needles

You try to stitch

But you hitch

I bleed forever.

The happyland of the garden of eden

Has become serpentine

They wrap their way

Up and up

Can't you hear me?

I say the magic words

"I'm sorry, please, just stop"

And it all goes black.

Inside.

Unfinished Diary Entry - 1

Could you please turn up

the volume?

I can't hear the tears.

The lies are in

the way

I can't see the screams.

I can't feel your cries.

Take me away

On a boat of sadness

Away from this place

Rather be with lust than die with love

House/Fire

Was it really that bad?

I know that I hurt you,

And I know I was hurt too.

The days melt into a cloud of smoke

Which slowly floats away

But not before I can smell the past

There is no smoke without fire.

Though that burned out long ago.

All I have now is sparks of desire.

An emotion that you will never know.

Fail/Your

I honestly can admit to this

My little flying blackened sin

One which shall help me in times of need

And rescue me from the shit I'm in

I rely on you, and that will always be wrong

Add some sadness, to this already sad song

By taking away the one I can lean on

By erasing yourself from my failing heart

I can tell you that you're taking away my sun

My light and warmth and the beauty of my art

My subject is gone and my canvas is too

My paints have been washed with the blankess of you

My pen has run out of the love we used to

Bask in at night and in the morning and all times in between

The things we don't say are the things that are seen

And although there is always a silver lining

And although they say the sun will keep shining

The air is cold, and the sky is grey

I would rather nothing

Than a broken heart anyway.

Height/Difference

I can stand in your shadow

Safe from the burning sun

I could climb your mountains

So you could see what I've become

I could look up to your halo

And grow by miles

I know you can't say it so

I'll just have to watch you smile

I know I can't hold your hand

And I know we cannot touch

Why don't the others understand

How we can love so much

You are my tower of hope

Amidst the sea

Of my dying heart

Without you I could not cope

In this ghost town

Where we must forever be apart

Your Eyes

I could get lost so easily

No matter which map I use

They all lead me to one conclusion

That I love you