Tick Back Know

Come with me

And write in between the lines

And we shall see

That letters cannot confine

What shall honestly be

Which of course isn't mine

I write a letter

To the examiner

remark

remark

The answer always the same

The same lack of X

Pass or fail

I will nail

The words you write

To the wall

The love which I can't see

At all

Give me red pen

Let me tick

The fail

What I want to study

May not necessarily

Be

In the pool system

It may not fit

But bit by bit

The empty spaces

Shall be filled in

And the hidden memories

Shall flood the sins

And my stolen smiles

Shall run for miles

To try and escape

Set in stone files

Figures facts

Yes or no?

Truth is tax

Lies not woe

Hello ages ago

We won't show slow

Although

Inside the covers we will sew

The glow

Of thinking being low

But I bestow

Tick for youth

Tick for go

Cross for truth

Cross, to know

Naked

I am washed ashore

The lush forest of gold

Where tales of life

And love, were told

Beauty Galore.

The palm trees sway

Live another day

Truth

Never too far away

Inside the forest

Death and doom

Underneath the ocean

Hurt and gloom

Through the beauty

Heartbreak looms.

There will be a time

When I can finally ignore

The out and the first

And the see and the saw

There will be a time

Where I look inside before

The outside is mine

And then I'll be yours

There will be a time

Where I must be truthful or

Our all with wither

And we cannot be anymore

There will be a time

When I can explore

The beauty within

There will be a time

Where ugly beauty I endure

And in this house of hope

I shall close no doors

But of this I am sure

There will be a time
Where deepness is at the core

As when you fill me up with love

I shall be shallow no more

Sin Song

I wash away the sins

And with the blessings

I form myself anew

Lord forgive me

For loving you

I bathe holy

The golden cuts

Deep into me

Drink the water

Blessed

The robe is clean

I am not

The aisle

Shall break

With my hearts

Ache

I am on fire.

The pews applaud

Smile no more

Holy nothingness

Pretty words are what we are told

They take you away from me

The diamond on the ring

The circle no more

The greatness above

And we, are impure.

Flying Away

I cannot see through

The mirrored face

Your parents say

I am disgrace

Better be nice

Or lose your place

I cannot see through

The blank smile

Your friends say

You should run a mile

I am the blood

You are my nile

I cannot be

The nothing no more

The world says

Only pain is instore

For the ones who want

And take no more

Than what glory gives

And what truth washes ashore

Burning

I can see the shards

Of broken hearts

In your eyes

Never your own

Never your own

I can see the pain

Of broken lives

In your soul

Never your own

Never your own

Carry me home

Away from your truth

And I live in a house

Made of what's not

What I wanted?

Never your own

Never your own

Love

The Meaning Of Life

There is always a purpose

So never feel useless

No matter who you are

No matter what you do

You are always here for a reason

I'm not talking about

Saving the planet

Discovering a cure

Creating beauty

Your reason

Is love

With love

You can save someones heart

From the deep shallows of loneliness

With love

You can cure all ailments

You can stop the pain

With love

Nothing is ugly

With love

Everyone is beautiful

Me,

My purpose?

I write these poems.

In the vain hope

That you will one day read them.

Everything is you.

Therefore

I am nothing.

I will never stop hoping

For I would rather be alone

Than with someone and just coping

And my heart turned to stone

Better late, than never

It could take years to be true

But I would wait forever

Love, to be beautiful

With you

Suicide Of The Heart

There will be a time

Where love seems far away

And in the dark cold of yourself

The ice shall take your heart

And the stone shall take your soul

But if you hold on

To your little piece of hope

There will be a day

Where the sun shall fail to shine

And in the loneliness of clouds

You feel so un-unique

Stuttering through the crowds

But if you forget the bleak

And hold on

To your little piece of hope

There will be a moment

When you feel like you cannot

Take anymore, and you wish

That you would've forgot

The things which are more

Important that what

The truth leaves behind

Rembants of a broken mind

There will

Always be me

A little piece of hope

By your side

And I swear I do love you

In all honesty

But if you wish to hope once more

Than we can never be

Sacrifice

Allow me to open the dreaded doors

And allow in the light which always flaws

The beauty which you said will just suffice

Has turned my tears into burning ice

And when all is finally true

I will finally be true with you

And when all my life si finally done

Yours will have only just begun

As my shining armour fades away

The clouds shall win another day

Where they hide the sun

And they hide the moon

And all we had is lost too soon

I cannot take away those lies

The ones which hide the beauty in your eyes

I cannot take away the pain

The nights you spent alone under the rain

I cannot take away the scars

Of what you were and how hurt chars

So I will give you my loving heart

Something you needed from the start

And whilst in happiness you soar

I am alone, my heart no more.

Tear Them Away

As I take the final stand

My eyes open up to you

My my heart shall make one more demand

That you allow our love to be true

As I make the final move

My voice opens out to you

And my heart shall always prove

That with out faith we'll make it through

As I speak the final silence

My lips part to save you

And as my breath fogs the violence

I become one with silence too

For as much as we say we live for now

And as much as we believe that love will last

One thing I cannot understand is how

Even eternal love cannot change the eternal past

Hope For Reality

Would you let me

Fall back down

This mountain

I have climbed for you?

Everest is nothing

Compared to the change

Which I have had to tolerate

More like a shallow

One which I must fill

And seal with no more pain and hate

I must plant the trees

Which I tried to cut down

The ones which caused

My smiles

And frowns

I thought that if I burnt down

The forest of feeling

My heart would at long long last

Begin healing

Are ashes really ashes?

Dust really dust?

Only true

When life is lust

For I believe now

That if such love

Can rise from a battlefield

Of my demise

Then from the ashes of

All your broken hearts

A new beautiful you

Can rise

Riddle

I think that's why

I decided to become
A person whom
Would feel less, and none

The joys of what
I call a lie

But not a lot

Would satisfy

I cannot see

How to lock the locks

I cannot be

The mockingbird who mocks

Let me be free

No more mehdinabox

For if I give into this lust

My heart will gather dust

And the webs of fake

Shall a heartbreak, make

A ballad with no words

Watch me wrap

The curtain round

And round our lives

To block out the sound

Of all the lies

Which we have found

The light cannot

Come into our dark

The peace is now

A mile apart
Filled with my gaps
And your stolen

Pleasure

At the time of my leisure
I shall read you

The broken pages of

My diary

The words in blood
The ink is finished

I carve you on my arm
A spitting image

Of the hurt I must endure

Just to be sure

Why the lie?

I am in a mirrored box.
I see myself in it
And you to win it

Must break down the walls
Of the homes of your past
And maybe only then
Will this love ever last

Please

I'm no fluffy bunny.
Though I admit Paris Hilton is a whore.

Many more of those around.
Bunnies, I mean.

I don't need your care.
I don't need your love.
I assure you, it's one sided.
Like my two faces.

My words will break you.
So don't think yours hurt.
My lies willl make you.
Feel like you're the dirt.
On the back of my shoe.
Is printed
"I don't love you"
"Property of no-one"

A typo
Common:
You story.

Try it.
You know you'll love it.

I'll fly out the widow.
Another error.
Down the slinky.
And then you'll have to
Chase me
But please
Erase me.

As I said
There are many whores.
You tattoed your name
Across my sin.
Etched in desire.

I want the effect.
Not the cause.
I want the feeling.
Bow down and applaud.

I'll tell you this:
I'm the playboy.
Not the bunny.

So please.
Leave me.
So I can use the
Strands of your
Broken
Dreams
To climb out of this sea of lust.

The Truth

I can afford little happiness
I am not paid much love
So one day
I walk
And I see gold
It finds me.

It is raw

Undefined
Natural
Beauty

I want it
I take it
I have to

My little piece of wonder
Heaven
Maybe love

But sorry.
The truth
Is truth.

I was taken
By the new shine
The old sparkle
Of something new

Unexperienced.

Maybe
If I wait
I can find
A ring
A chain
Or something
Which is golden
In nature
And in use.

For what use
Is raw lust anyway?

Surviving Cuddles

If you can find the key
I will let you be.

I will let you out of your bruised soul.

This ravaged wasteland
Eden is hell
I shall take my arms
Around you neck
And stranglekiss

Think of it as a thank you
For everything I didn't do

You want this to end
Phone a friend
But you have none
Because when you're not with me
You're not you
You don't need to be free


But the blade may help you to.

A Pair Of All

When I wish upon a star

It shoots

Away

The dandelions wings are spread

I wish one butterfly to you
My eyes shall protect you
My heart shall guide you
And my arms shall hold you

Bat Bat Bat
Away

I don't want your loving arms
I don't want your caring eyes
I don't want your broken heart
I fly away once more
Out through that blackened door
Your cautious fire burned down

The walls of her wedding gown
Make sense of this metaphor:
What were lies are truths once more

Alice In Ponderland

She runs after time
The white rabbit
Bounce to the music
Only way she can be your friend

Mad hatter is what she is

Stuck in a room
She takes a cake
E

ats it
She seems so much bigger
You can hear her now
Well you listen

Night is over
She wants to go home
Leave her
Off with her head
Queen of hearts
Though hers is dead

Back for another try
She will enjoy the rave
For a while
Till you say she's got no style

She plays croquet
Though you make sure she loses
Make sure she misses
Makes you feel better?

Remember this,
If you are king,

You shall fall to the queen of hearts.
To your knees and beg.
Though don't you understand?
Haven't I said?
Dear Alice's heart is already dead.

JAJTAP

They run up the hill
To fetch some water
To save themselves
From the slaughter
Too much pain around eh?
Can't stand another day?

They are waste
That's what you say.

E?
Mo.

At least read into it
Take the abbreviation
And realise it's creation

You You You
What else have you made
Oh dicaprio of hell?

Black hearts
Black hair
Black eyes

"They're so weird, I mean they must cut themselves all the time"

NoNoNo
They don't like blood.
So Jack and Jill
They take a pill
And wash it down with water
To save themselves
From your peoples slaughter

Little Red Piggy

She wore that hood
And bonnet
All the time

But she had to you see
It wasnt her fault she was ugly
Her face caused controversy
And people laughed so eagerly

A merrigoround of freaks is

What you called her peaks are
Your joy from pain is
The smiles that you gain are
Created from your tears
Her fears
You leer
You are scare
She knows you are not fair
You are her nightmare

Big Bad Wolf
Blow her down
Sticks and Stones
Hay, Bricks
No Matter what
She tries to hide behind
Your words will break through
And you will find
Not an ugly girl
Not a little pig

For that look in the mirror.

You see what you have done
And it has only just begun

Her corpse will haunt you
And then we'll see who has won

The Boy Is Wolf

He is violence

Uncleanliness

Unshaven
Unkind
Unhappy

Rough one he is.

Don't get too close to him
He'll slit throats.

He eats raw

He is beast

He will feast

On your heart

Right from the start I knew he was different

Whispers rumours

Repulsion of rights

But But But

It must be true

What you think of him
And the terror he brings you

-Forget the lies.
-But one thing was right.
-He will slit one throat
-His own
-Tonight.

Nursery Grime

The house is sweetness

Which will burn your tongue if you touch it.

Follow back the dry trail

To your parents who didn't love you so.

To the people who do not care or know.
To the friends who like you just for show.

Goldilocks was right.
With her perfect blonde curls.
You are too hot

Too cold.

You are too small.
Too tall.

You are never
Just right
So just fight
And take flight
And fire, fire fire away
Far far far away

From who you really are
And let the truth be left
Lying in a pool of blood
No son of the gun
But one with the gun
As all hope is lost
You find the trigger

Is this what you wanted oh world of lies?
Where such unique beauty leads to sacrifice?

Fairy Fail

Rapunzel, Rapunzel

Let it be fair

Don't let me love you on the colour of your hair

Or on the way which you do or do not commit to prayer

For they have no affect on the way I care

So much about the one who once sweetly did lie there

But alas now truth has won the war

And I shall sit in thought once more

As I recall my wish on your beautiful eyes,
Shooting stars

See people for who, not what they are

Knife-Hug

I search for you using a torch

I shine the beam

Higher and higher

I remember the day we met

Cream cosiness on a

Black sun

Green eyes into ice.

I have escaped the shards now.

But somehow, I feel a longing for the pain.

Bring back your locked and loaded mouth.

Fire at me.

Let me feel the talons of love.

The tattoos you leave

They will always hurt.

My hurricane is approaching

But will forever be stemmed by your existence

A meagre breeze wafts in

Through the window of my true love

Too weak to notice.

I find you at last.

The beam shines

Higher and higher

As I slam

into the ground

HIStory.

If I were a robot, would you still love me?

My skin is steel.

Your lies can't pierce it.

My eyes are glass.

I see

Through you.

My mouth is nothingness

Like your soul.

My heart is a battery

Break it and I die.

I walk with a purpose.

I do not act on emotion.

I have none.

Isn't that what you always wanted?

So make my veins wires

And my lusts fires

And burn my mind

On a spitfire

Of your desire.

Look In Front, Everytime.

In retrospect, the kaleidoscope is only temporary.

The shiny colours and flashing shapes glide smoothly into light.

And as you take away the beautiful telescope,

No longer do you see what's far away

But what is here, and now.

My tears shall always outflow

The rain which floods my heart with bliss

And the clouds the skies and the heavens they know

There will be sunshine when we kiss