Sea of sorrow

Its been 5 years since I began.
Began here, and since then, I began to realise,
what it felt, to be truly,
and utterly...

One may laugh at my statement, but you would be
only one of the hundreds that laughed at me,
my essence
and my pitiful existence.

In the first year I though I felt true love,
As light as air, and as free as a dove,
And in that year I felt my heart break,
No more emotion I could take.

I tried that year,
and I failed,
and I shed one more tear,
and through the sea of them I sail.

In the second year I found a friend,
One to stand by me till the end.
In that year, much betrayal I knew,
Nothing said, was ever true.

I tried that year,
and I failed,
and I shed one more tear,
and through the sea of them I sail.

In the third year I learnt of death,
And how it can affect my life,
How it can twist our simple dreams,
And how it can end pain and strife.

I tried that year,
and I failed,
and I shed one more tear,
and through the sea of them I sail.

In the fourth year I fell so low,
Smitten by the final blow,
I felt like all had gone,
No more light through those clouds shone.

I tried that year,
and I failed,
and I shed one more tear,
and through the sea of them I sail.

In the fifth year it all went wrong,
And thats why Im writing this song.
To explain why I made the pain go away.
And why I could not take another day.

Its been 5 years since I began.
Began here, and since then, I began to realise,
what it felt, to be truly,
and utterly
despised.

In this year,
I will shed no more tears.
I will face up to my fears.
And I shall sail,
in the seas
of sorrow.