Why We Die

I've been waiting for years.

Maybe you've been lagging,

Maybe you've been getting rid of me,

Your baggage, What you've been dragging,

All this time.

It is cold outside your heart.

Whenever you yawn I can see myself in the steam.

You're not as cold as you seem them.

Maybe whats around you has frozen your heart.

Whenever you talk I hear myself in the nonsense.

You speak now, not like before.

Or maybe you just wouldn't talk 

To me.

Whenever walk I sense myself in your stride.

Hiding in your shadow.

Hoping there will be never be darkness.

What I was always scared of.

In your smile I see my tears,

And in your laughter, my fears

Are all that I can think about.

In your eyes.

I see the fields we never had the chance to walk in.

The seas we never sailed on.

You used to say
"Whatever floats your boat"

But now, I am drowning

In an ocean of neglect.

All this time.

You've never realised,

That I cherished your useless prescence.

And I want it back.

But it is too late.

Please--

I regret.

It all.

I beg of you.

Find me.

Save me.

One last time.

Don't leave me hanging.