Three.

Dear Diary

I'll try and be smiley from now on, k! I have so much coursework as well, I mean, why did I take science AND maths! No free time at all this weekend. Not like I would do anything with it, but well, the fact that it's there would help a little bit, y'know.

But like, some people are doing like quadruple maths, and they have less work than me. My mum always tells me I work too much, which is really weird, because apparently other rents tell their kids to work more. Is it so wrong to like work sometimes?

I mean, I would rather not bisect with a compass, but what choice do I have. Anyway, we have a cool day out with my bio class to collect insects and stuff on Wednesday! I'm really excited, I've got my whole coach music video playlist ready!

I don't really like little insecty watery things though, they're a bit icky though. We have to examine them later though. Which I suppose is better than just looking at them and assuming, I mean, sure, they aren't really like us, but we cant just treat them like shit because of it! Our bio teachers quite nice though, he actually knows my name! I mean, it really isnt that hard,

M-A-T-T.

It isn't even foreign. Well, its short for Matzycia, but still! I mean, just take away the last bit, and say the first thing that comes into your head. Jesus, people do it with other things, but not with names.
I finished my history essay last night though. I like history, I can really get into it,cos you know, I know it's already happened, and there's nothing to worry about, because its not something that's like variable. It's always there, and always will be.

But I wish sometimes

That they would look behind the fringe
And deep into my eyes
And see what lies deep inside

And see through all of the lies

The blades will reflect away

The light

Which I try so hard to hide

From

My dear diary

As much as I love

Being the one who's being led

Away from all the pain

I wish I could say all

Of this

To someone I could call a friend

Instead