After

And though there is sadness in my smile
There will always be laughter in my tears
I no longer must wait through the years
I no longer sit in the darkness of denial

Although the light shines so brightly
At first it hurts my eyes and soul
I no longer need the cold to keep me whole
I no longer wonder and wallow nightly

My hands are still empty
And my heart is still full
And of joy, there is plenty
And of hurt, there is still

Enough to keep me going
Enough to keep me strong
Enough to keep me knowing
What I should have known all along

Maybe I am wrong
But I can still feel
That we could belong
But opened wounds can heal

And soon I will forget
Though lying on the bare floor
And the past, I should never regret
As you can never change before

And as much as I may cry
My tears are only for your
Happiness and so I ask why
And I can no longer ignore

My heart is not for myself
Anymore
And if there is one
That can bring a smile upon your face
I care not if my soul is sore
Your happiness is better than none


Although nothing can replace
The simple beauty
Of your embrace