Murky Waters

I sit in on the banks with my feet in dark water

And splash around hoping they wont get any colder
In the night if I lean right over the edge

I can feel how its like to let go and hold on

And I constantly swing from one side to another

Like an unwanted clock pendulum counting time 

When it's already been years since it was over.

If I hold on tight to the rope and just skim the surface

With my hands, maybe then I will feel the warmth

Through invisible gloves I've been told to wear

But the fear of falling in too deep

Drowns out my tears and then I close my eyes

And wait for sleep and someone who cares

Like a nightmare preacher always there.

The grey sunset neither white or black fills in

The gaps between drying my eyes and washing my lies

Making sure they're clean and ready to be used again and again

And neither love nor hate holds together my soul and my sighs

But yet the amorous noose holds my neck tight

And like a trapped kiss it lets me walk on air.

But yet still broken arms can't hold themselves

So I hang onto all I have left inside

The dawn burns into morning

And the stars look at me, and hide

Quiet screams make no noise in the night

The distant land bound by laws of light

The butterfly who flies too far will die

And here only more than one voice is sane.

And only the wounds offer me their embrace

Then the mirror shatters into a smile

And yet I still sit on the cold dark edge

Knowing that I'll wait for you.
I'll wait a while.