Stone

I thought that where I stood
Was unbreakable. I admit,
When the night fell. Like a shadow from
His throne, cold concrete wasn't
The most comfortable of beds.

In the morning, the distance
Became even more evident. All
I had to do was step,
Once, twice, maybe
thrice, and I'd be into a whole new world.
Full of life and happiness,
But with each step
I'd have to roll a dice,
Which would tell me in it's
Numbered honesty,
Where I could go.

My feet felt warm on the chess board.
I, the pawn, and you, the king.
Opposite sides to the same game.
Opposite sides to the same name.

If I look back, and scream remembrance
Maybe I could claw myself up
And I would lay panting, tearing
On the fossil floor.

But then you held me
And I walked again for the first time
Always forward, never back.
But then you held me
And I pushed the others out of love
Always forward, never back.
And then you held me
And you told me, if I reached the end
Always forward, never back.
I'd no longer be compelled to be,
But I lost you as more than a friend.
You stayed white and I stayed black.

And as I realized, I turned around
And for the very first time, again
I had to pretend, but this time, in reverse
As I reached my grey paradise
But all the squares were broken.
Nothing had changed, and truth's curse
Had shattered their gloom, leaving nothing
Said, nothing to say, nothing spoken
And I tried to pick them up
And as I cried my hands they bled
And now they touch no more.
Feeling is sore, as I remember
The cold concrete of your head.