Broken

Just when I thought
I could finally find
The faultless touch
Of a feeling

Like every other before it
It slips
Out of my reach
A minute becomes a mile
And it fades
Forever

For the first time
I smiled
A wait I thought worthwhile

I should have known
My smile would become tears
My mind should have grown
Over my heart, which fears
Now everything and everyone
For I still let people hurt me
After all these wasted years.

And this is still a home.
That no-one can explain.
And I am still alone.
Drowning in useless pain.

I hide myself
Inside my heart
Scared that there might always be
Some person that will take it from me
From the start
And make me suffer
So endlessly

I should know
That I am in for an endless day
For a person that seems so
Happy to betray
Me
To ruin and
to play
me.

No-one will find me.
No-one will look
At the bottom
Of a dark and desolate place.
Scarred, tired, and dying
By the memories of your face.

Which never was
And never will be
To live and die alone
Is my destiny

Which I cannot touch
Nor could I ever see
I gave too much
And now I mean nothing to me

Which I can never hate
Love, something else I can never do.
That is my pointless fate
Forever bound
To a memory of you.