Release

I doubt you can smile like me.

Trapped in a world lacking

Faith and honesty.

But yet I am happy

As it's what I'm told to be.

I don't really thing there is a need.

For your eyes to flicker through my heart

And douse the flame with abandoned flowers

Left until the final hours

And then you let them burn

With your greed.

The hurt gives me strength to fall

To pull you close when we're far apart

Too scared to let you in at all

So I leave us both outside

In the cold, and the dark.

How long have you known me.

Because it seems

You only see

When there is sunshine

Behind the clouds

But at all other times

You don't agree.

And yet you still say

That you feel some pain

At the lack of me being there

But you've never been 

With me through the rain.

And it's just so unfair

That I wan't to push away

And just tell you 

Everything I've felt

Everywhere I fell

Everyone I've seen.

Because you only know

The in between.

They only know the broken pieces

But they see what they wish when they pay the toll

And so slowly the worth decreases

And they dig my grave, my shallow hole

And only your arms

Can stretch far enough

To take me

And break me

But still 

I am a mistake

And your hold is oh so fake

So I grasp you

And then I wake.

I doubt anyone can catch me when I fall.

I doubt there is anyone who knows me at all.